In life you get two types of people. The doormat and the go-getter. Lucky for you guys I’m the doormat. Those who know me well know that I can never say the word ‘NO’! Yesterday has been a real emotional roller-coaster for me. My heart swelled when people understood why getting published was always my intention, and so important but each time I read a negative comment it struck me to the heart. Yes, I do not know each and every one of you personally, but we have developed some sort of relationship. All my life I have sacrificed, as all women do daily, to make sure that everyone’s else’s comfort comes first. And today is no different. Yes, those negative comments do matter to me, those insults have hurt me. You said I used you… I will prove you wrong, because that is what I do! I know what was in my heart, I was on this journey alone. No one came and whispered words into my ears for me to write this story. I was the one who decided to share it with the world. What right do I have to snatch it away? Mumtaz’s story will continue from Monday. And NO! not because I want the readers, those who have unsubscribed please you are under no pressure to return. I am not ungrateful to my readers, but I do want to prove that I am not a user. I rather let my dream slide, than to prove you right.
Yes, I can write another story, but if this one took me five years to complete, how long will another, with three kids, a husband and house to clean? Yes, this is not your problem.
Those who wish me well may ask why should I care about the negative comments, they are not in my life that I need to prove something to them. It’s not me, it’s not who I am. I aim to please…. everyone else but myself. At the end of the day Allah is the one who makes things happen. If my book is to be published, then it is already written out. If not, then at least it reached the world somehow.
I thank you again for reading my blog. I know that no matter what I say, there are always going to be haters. Fame and fortune was not my intention, else I would have wrote something along the likes of “Fifty Shades”. I wanted feedback. Someone is going to say I am doing this because I don’t want to loose readers, but I repeat to those that unsubscribed please note you are under no obligation to return, while I appreciate your visit, I am not begging you to return. The decision is yours to make. I am continuing to prove to you that I am not a user! As a Muslim, this is more important to me than publishing my book.
Please note that trashy name calling will not be allowed and your comment will be deleted.
I thank everyone else for the well-wishes and duas and kind words… yours is the messages that should have stuck, but somehow my brain got screwed on the wrong way and I hear only the negativity. Jazakallah for believing in me! Jazakallah for the kind words and make me maaf if I have offended any person who has ever visited this blog.
My day will come… there is still hope!